L. M. N. O. Please

Please...please...please... I just need peace. I don't want to explain myself anymore, nor defend. apart from the reason that it's one thing I'm not good at.
Since last week i've been having this so-called happy mood, like I feel a weird rush of blood in my heart, like having butterflies in your stomach, like your cheeks felt a little tension because you can't put down your smile, and you just don't care if you look like a moron---these, that I've never felt for quite a long time...well, I felt this...but this one is huge, this one is something present and real...well, at least literally real. I just don't get some people who seems to not like it when they see you happy, most importantly when they know they weren't the reason of it. If they can't be happy for you, why can't they just shut up. Blah.blah.blah..... it's not that I don't care, nor I want to cut you out,it's just that my mind wants you , but what it'd like more than anything right NOW is to just float and savor love... without you in it.