Fuck you I'm not competing with you.

I'm enjoying my job right now, I'm learning a lot, and I know that what I'm doing now will be of great part of what will I do or who will I become in the long run. But oh please help me god, 'cause I don't find connection with some of the people I'm working with, and that's a bit thorny for an Aquarian like me. I'm fine-tuning with everything and I know I can, it's just that in a flash I came to a point that I miss where my heart feels tranquility and contentment and instant happiness and connectivity I don't have to put a lot of an effort in crushing the law of attraction.

Sometimes I hate it when people treat me as their competition. For whatever sort, It pisses me of, really. You know I don't have anything against your so-called "healthy competition", I am human, and I do it from time to time, not just in excessive manner. And I do dislike the feeling of it. It's not that I don't like competing, or I'm short-tailed about it, it's just that I found it so puffed up and hyped, that everyone is trying to be the best and everyone seem to forget to try to be different. Sadly, reality moves in the mainstream, and it doesn't need much of people trying to be different.

You've been appearing in my subconscious lately, and for some reasons I don't know why.---> This stuff is mystifying me, makes me wonder a lot, but still put an anticipation in me which I find weird. I think it's not indispensable anymore but it's still staying.