Connection or Serendipity

TODAY’S ADVICE: Nothing is really over until you stop trying.

Okay. Would I take it?

What have I gotten myself into? I’m such a loco homo when it comes to deciding what to do! Well guess what???! I don’t know what to do! It’s so raaaaaaaaaaad, isn’t it?! (of course that’s pseudo-intellectual. Need not to say that.) How silly, I said it anyway. Please expect in, I’m heading south today, and you’re heading mid-west. Please excuse me for that.

I’m so befuddled between these two issues which really matters to me. Seriously. And now I’m sitting in front of my retard computer (which I still love tho), and I’m like blank, I don’t know what to say next. “cause that’s all I know, these two things in my life matter to me. Actually they ain’t things, they are people. And what’s crazy is I’m trying to resort myself to any of these while they ain’t up to it. Things are flashing back and forth my mind, like I screwed things up, like I can’t wait anymore though I know I still can, like I feel this, what about the dreams, what about the laugh insurance only us have, the legit stuff, an so on…and after everything, there it goes... I did screw things up for real. I guess I’m trying again to please, I mean I do, a little, but god! I need cooperation from whatever. My heart is too fragile for this.

I still laugh things off, that's how I am. But this has been a tough time for me.