Hmn...I'm finding a hard time writing these days to be honest. You know, something sensible for myself, when i don't usually squeeze myself to be creative on that part. But I'm finding it quite easy and going back to writing songs from real emotions. I'm trying to create a nice melody that suits on how I feel, that I wanted to have the same emotion even after few years later when I listen to it. I'm enjoying this. :)It's exactly 12 midnight now, I'm still awake. I usually blog when everybody is asleep, I can't just write for real when there's people around. (that's why I admire and heart these people that still makes me write something nice around him/her). This is the other part of me...I feel like I want to be alone just tonight. I just wanna think things seriously, because some of it are critical, some are just something to ponder about. Some are funny...different things. Well, this are the stuff that makes my life exciting. They call me 'emo', but I can't believe I'm a 'happy emo'. I just enjoy thinking about the memories. I don't know where I'm getting all these reason to smile. Whoever or whatever you are, I love you.
(get use to this type of my writing--abrupt changing ot topic :]) I'm seriously pissed earlier 'cause my trip is 3 days delayed. Thus, I will be 2 days absent, and that sucks by the way. I'm becoming a real aunt to my 6 year old neice these days. haha and I'm enjoying it :) I teach her with school stuff, do bathing with her, playing, blah blahsss... trying to teach her play the guitar, and make her listen to my music. haha Could somebody tell me I'm doing it the bad way? haha I remember talking to my friend, I always tell her that I'm excited to have a baby...a blonde baby with green eyes. :) (not now. don't freak out. :D)
This is not new to me. People always find me weird, I don't expect everyone to get me al the time. And I'm fine with that. :) People who want me, try to get to know better, and those who don't ditch me. I do the same. Not totally ditch, but I don't pay much attention to those who don't get my attention, but it doesn't mean I hate you. For me, relationship (friends and boyfriends) is a process. This will sound ironic when I say I enjoy meeting different kinds of people, and this will make more ironic when I say I'm not that friendly. See? I'm weird. :)
You know I'm excited to talk and laugh over my weirdness...your weirdness...our weirdness over a cup of coffee...during fall. Don't you? :) I can picture that.
