Cheers 09! Flex 10!

My last post for this year...Good bye 2009! You've been so good to me, and I want to thank all those people who made it all a lot better. You know who you are. :) Sooooo, WELCOME 2010! let's keep the positive vibes, the love...more love...the smiles, the laugh, and the guts! 2010's gonna be my year. It's gonna kick some ass! Flex! :)

My hometown beach. I love this photo taken by my friend.blue moon love

Dat Warm Happy Heart

Hmn...I'm finding a hard time writing these days to be honest. You know, something sensible for myself, when i don't usually squeeze myself to be creative on that part. But I'm finding it quite easy and going back to writing songs from real emotions. I'm trying to create a nice melody that suits on how I feel, that I wanted to have the same emotion even after few years later when I listen to it. I'm enjoying this. :)

It's exactly 12 midnight now, I'm still awake. I usually blog when everybody is asleep, I can't just write for real when there's people around. (that's why I admire and heart these people that still makes me write something nice around him/her). This is the other part of me...I feel like I want to be alone just tonight. I just wanna think things seriously, because some of it are critical, some are just something to ponder about. Some are funny...different things. Well, this are the stuff that makes my life exciting. They call me 'emo', but I can't believe I'm a 'happy emo'. I just enjoy thinking about the memories. I don't know where I'm getting all these reason to smile. Whoever or whatever you are, I love you.

(get use to this type of my writing--abrupt changing ot topic :]) I'm seriously pissed earlier 'cause my trip is 3 days delayed. Thus, I will be 2 days absent, and that sucks by the way. I'm becoming a real aunt to my 6 year old neice these days. haha and I'm enjoying it :) I teach her with school stuff, do bathing with her, playing, blah blahsss... trying to teach her play the guitar, and make her listen to my music. haha Could somebody tell me I'm doing it the bad way? haha I remember talking to my friend, I always tell her that I'm excited to have a baby...a blonde baby with green eyes. :) (not now. don't freak out. :D)

This is not new to me. People always find me weird, I don't expect everyone to get me al the time. And I'm fine with that. :) People who want me, try to get to know better, and those who don't ditch me. I do the same. Not totally ditch, but I don't pay much attention to those who don't get my attention, but it doesn't mean I hate you. For me, relationship (friends and boyfriends) is a process. This will sound ironic when I say I enjoy meeting different kinds of people, and this will make more ironic when I say I'm not that friendly. See? I'm weird. :)


You know I'm excited to talk and laugh over my weirdness...your weirdness...our weirdness over a cup of coffee...during fall. Don't you? :) I can picture that.

PS I want to thank you for inspiring me more, and making me feel worth. My heart is with you. Always.

Sucker for Leather

My papa sells the 'raw' material for leather, and I've always been in love with anything LEATHER. I just can't get enough of it. ;D

Calatagan

Been in Calatagan, Quezon (my friend's hometown) last weekend for our Marketing Research Course. We did enjoy! I'll spare you guys with the annoying details of this project haha. So, here's just some of the photos. :)

Happy Holiday! Ho Ho Ho!

hohohoho!!! Happy Holidays everyone!!! Finally I'm back in my sweet hometown again! :D I can't believe we're seven of us celebrating this holiday, usually we're only three or if lucky enough we're four. haha

My trip last night was horrible! My gahd! I spent half of my day inside the car. I swear I won't join carpooling again going home. Not anymore! Seriously I swore that to myself. haha

So, I haven't posted anything here for the longest time ha. I told you I was really busy, and even if we're on holidays, we still have loads of take home school projects to do. But anyway, I'm enjoying the Holidays now! :D Actually, we're cooking right now, and I do the tasting part hahaha that's why I love it when my chef ate is here. :D It's a little sad 'cause kuya Bawit and ate Ana won't be spending their Christmas with us since they can't due of their works. :│ And that's what voice chatting is for. haha

We'll be celebrating our Noche Buena in few hours! I'm excited to greet everyone, for the foodssss, I'm excited to open the presents, I'm excited for 2110! :D

How I wish I could spend a white Christmas with my family and love ones soon. :)

Got sunny side up?

Goooooood moooooorning! :D I'm cooking my breakfast today! I'm having 2 sunny side up, salami, 4 slices of bread, and yoghurt. my gahd. Me going healthy?! That's unusual. haha Hmn...I didn't know why I've decided to make this photo black and white. Weird. Have an awesome morning though! and a sweet day ahead! :D

Emman's 20th

Dang the first restaurant we had last night 'cause of some snooty staff, so we've decided not to eat there, then we end up in a cute restaurant but it takes us so long to choose, 'cause stupid us didn't realize that 'hello! it's Saturday, every restaurant is full!' haha

So it was Emman's celebration of his birthday last night. We had fun a lot! Well, always! Except for a little unfortunate situation when my friend's mobile phone was stolen. Darn it. But after some few moment of cooling up... back to dance! dance!

HBD

You and me could write a bad romance

If you think I moved on. Well yeah I moved on. And I’m not hoping for it anymore. But in this case, for me, moving on doesn’t include of forgetting liking you. I'm not that type of person, I think beyond that. For me it’s just accepting the fact that I like you just the same as liking these other people around me, but yours on a different level and you don’t. It’s just living with it. It wasn’t hard, but it wasn’t easy as well. But I know anytime soon it will be worth it. Today, I met him, and now I'm way okay of having this relationship with you, like friends you know. But there's one thing I don't like going on, is that when I'm becoming like this, you know slowly drifting away from you, that's when you seem to be talking shit again with me. I don't hate you for this, I just wanna see you becoming a better person, because I care about you so much. It's just one day I wanna see you going after the girl you really really want because you want her and you need her, not just because she likes you, or you have the potential to be together, or she's the one around for now. I want you to not let go of the girl you need so bad because of your fucking pride. You must eat it. I know you don't want that kind of love story. And if now or soon that girl is me, please don't hurt my fragile heart 'cause you have no idea what it has been. C'mon, don't mess around and don't send your fucking mix signals 'cause I know you're mixing it by purpose and 'cause you keep on screwing things up. Life's been so good, don't you see? So, let's just be happy for each of us. Is that alright? I'm always a friend, I will always be here for you, you know that, but I'm just not the right playmate for your games. Not anymore. I think I did grew a lot, and I have a lot of growing to do. And one thing I have learned is that you can never kill the feeling on your own, that’s when you are bitter. Feelings die through time. And mine might just be soon or now. I know myself and this happen often, sometimes it comes back, and sometimes it doesn’t at all. I have to remain open. Feelings that don’t die and even grow fonder in time despite any pain, distance and everything is special, then I must say… it must be it.

For MB
(If you think I wrote this for you, think twice…but maybe this is really for you.)


“We can be happy anytime once we understand that the only place we’ll ever find genuine happiness is inside us. Happiness begins at the point of ACCEPTANCE: the point when we stop questioning why life can’t be perfect and just accept the world the way it is. --ANONYMUS

Though…

“Happiness is somewhat different when someone else does it for us.”--ANONYMUS

And that’s when “two-way” love exist. And that’s what I’m hopeful about.

Weekends at Uni

We begin with our thesis' introduction and background yesterday, planned our Marketing course project, and planned our vacation in our hometown this summer! :D

we love to hang out in the field and watch some soccer games after a long stressful day...just to unwind :)

Cut out boots

I want to have this boots! Not badly, but I want it. Or something alike. :)

Henry Poole WAS Here

I find this movie really weird. And a tearjerker as well. I don't know how on both sides.

It's December! Flex!

Hello December! :D Wow, time is really fleeting so fast, I can't believe it's gonna be 2010 in 30 days, and I'm gonna be 21 in approximately 62 days! Okay, I'm really getting older, hmn...getting close to it...a bit. :)

So, I haven't posted for a week, as usual for the same reason...UNI STUFF! Well, I've been screwing some of my readings and paper but I'm quite getting used to it, and pretty much having a good relationship with it. HAH. :) Anyway, IT'S DECEMBER! Flexxxx! It's one of my most favorite month and season! You know, Christmas...Holidays...gifts...haha...family, foods, love ones, noise...nice kind of noise, better weather...at least not humid, everything! I mean the Christmas spirit! I just love it!

Just a bit about my lil world...well, I've been doing good so far with my life now. I'm loving my decisions, and so far the consequences as well. Life's been so sweet and smooth with me these days. Not bad at all. :)

SOME PHOTOS I TOOK TODAY ...just to see next year how was it in the past 365 days. :)

December 1 in our street. You see the typical Christmas lights on some house. And some double parking cars. haha

I got a present already! Too early for Christmas ha! :) But I do love this new leather jacket with a leopard print inside! ♥♥♥ Hmn, why do I invest on so many clothes for cold weather by the way?! Maybe I'm supposed to be on places on some sort sometime soon. Ok. What the shack I'm talking about! haha

and SHABA! I have to thank my best friend Teresa and his brother for this chocolate they got for me fresh from Estonia/Sweden. Been munching this since yesterday. One of the best chocolate I must say! :)

the moon tonight.

Long weeeeeeekeeeeeend

what the crook is wrong with you J.T?! Next time you take photos of me, please try to include my face. haha or should I ask... what's wrong with my face? :D

Brotherly love

In Makati right now, blogging while waiting for this late person. Grrrrr! I was with my brother yesterday that I haven't seen for two long years! Actually I was with my two kuyas yestarday. :) And I have always loved that feeling, whenever I hang out with my kuyas and ates and much more with the whole family at the same time. You know, when you talk about tons of stuff during dinner and stay there for long hours just laughing until the dishes are all dried up! haha I always miss those times! :)

I painted it red

I like holding my boy's hand. I feel safe when I do it.

"Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They are in each other all along"

Loving library

Went out last night with my friend to watch New Moon. It was a free invite so why not! :D But I really don't know why I never got hooked with the whole Twilight Saga thing, hmn...no offense to all the fans okey, but it doesn't really interest me, but I find it cute though. :)

But today... guess we find a new hang out! THE LIBRARY! THE GREAT GREAT LIBRARY!!! Neat! And we found a very pleasant readingssss, that is Organ Transplant, Ethical tourism, Nietzsche, Utilitarianism, Feminism, and more. Been really busy with tons of school stuff now, that's what's keeping me out of touch with some people, and I miss them badly. :[ We're gonna catch up sometime soon anyway.

Ink

I heart my brother's new ink! My foot's next! :D

Kitty Purry

It's been a week I haven't written anything here. Sigh! School is tiring me so much and taking all of my time. And could you imagine that! This is only our first week and projects and assignments and research and papers and readings and expenses and blah blah blahs are so overflowing like milk and honey! hah! Right now I'm figuring out how will I survive my last sem. haha :D But on the other hand, I'm enjoying my last few moments in my Uni. Well, I should. :)

I must say that my previous week was so hyped 'cause of Katy Perry's concert last Saturday! Gosh! It was really awesome! and jampacked! Katy Perry went naughty and sweet and the crowd just went so crazy! haha It was a whole lot fun! 'twas a BLAST! :D



Hmn, this week wasn't a wack at all! :D

Uni & Leather

I heart my new leather back pack. Perfect for my first day! :D
I'm excited for tomorrow! It's gonna be my first day back in the Uni after eight long months out of it. Sigh! I hope it's gonna be a great day! I'm excited for my friends, foods, chats, new professors, new classmates, new courses, new experiences! and a lot lot moreeee! So wish me good luck! Goodnight. *

Top 5 Silliest Dream

Everything on my head right now works on list. Specifically with numbers. haha

So, let me put down my...

TOP 5 Silliest(but really makes sense to me ha :P)Dream

1. Sweet dance in the song Eternal Flame (for some reasons, I don't know why I like to do it with that song)
2. Ride the most extreme roller coaster in the world! Weeh!
3. Be in a music video
4. Have my blondie babies
5. Road trip with a special someone. Just us! I'm selfish, i want only us. haha

and by Silliest Dreams by the way, i mean "kinda how will I get these dreams" kind of dreams. :D

Sweepstakes luck? Nah.

Good morning! Whew. Just got home from a very looooooooooooong day yesterday. We went to school for enrollment, we went biking, we do a lot of walking, we had the craziest shit Halloween party...well if that's how you call it. haha we drink a little, and we slept late. Gosh, I'm freaking tired today. But we all had fun! haha Now all my body aches. bleee.

I bought this ticket earlier at the train station. Why? I don't know too haha but I was daydreaming earlier that I might won millions, then I can do Euro trip now! haha I know that's silly. :D I really don't have my fortune with Sweepstakes tickets. haha

“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night."

Fleeting

I like you. I really do. But I'm scared.

Deer Ear

me and my bestest friend Maggie doing the deer ear(if you haven't heard about it, you're off! haha kidding! :D
We just went to the beach and tell stories about blah blah blahs of life, you know, the typical. But I'm glad we hang out again after so long though Teresa and Ayen are not present(my two other bestest)'cause we live in two different cities which is very far from each other. She was my friend since fifth grade, and I'm glad with the fact that even though we don't speak for like months, nothing's change with us. They're kinda like my sisters. Bottom line...I'm really happy to have them! :)

Jay Lyon

Jay Lyon--my current Aussie obsession for the month of November! haha since I'm watching The City again. ♥♥♥ I love him there. He's so adorable, and need not to mention...he's HOT. haha :)

Beach, Leo's, Emman's

We had a blast last night! It was supposedly a bonfire party but unfortunately due to the sucky weather (by the way, our little town faces the Pacific, so we welcome every typhoon. Great ha!) we ended up eating out near the beach and drinking out at Emman's house. The whole crew was all in there after three years I guess, so it was really great to spend the night with them! We had tons of fun! BIG TIME!While we were waiting for them

with my two closest friends-Desiree and Kris

More photos to come soon. I'm glad and lucky they are my friends. I heart each of them! :D

Tuna siesta (are you a pig?)

Buuuurp! I made hot and spicy tuna spaghetti earlier for siesta and dinner! Yum! It's just plain tomato and tomato sauce, tuna, and mushroom-my specialty! haha :D

By the way, there's this two funny scenes that happened earlier. (at least for me. hehe)

Mama: What does it said? What will I put?
(she's asking about what will she put in the flower to stay fresh)
Maya: Oh! Simple! You will just put pepper, salt, onion, ginger, you should taste it mama. ( i was referring to our lunch)
Mama: *weird face*

Earlier today, I was in a line and behind me was this two cute kid...

white kid to a Filipino chubby kid: Are you a pig?! Are you a pig ha?!

Shiiiit! LOL! LOL! LOL! Gosh! This made me laugh really! :)) They're so cute! haha


Tom: What happens when you fall in love?
Summer: You believe in that?
Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Claus.

Less school life

Holy crap! I will be graduating in less than six months! and I will be unemployed soon! hahaha But I shouldn't be! I won't! :D For the meantime, while we're still enjoying the pleasure of the days without our (upcoming) thesis project, here are the.....

Twelve little things that I enjoy the most (at the moment, at random order):

1. the weather! I define this as the perfect tropical weather. Windy, sunny but not humid. I'm in love with it!
2. Mikey's mail.
3. my long lil messy hair, that I will cut short soon.
4. the sunset on our rooftop. so orange, so peaceful, soooo...
5. my allowance that I continually receive in my bank account even though I don't have my classes. Aye! It's great to be on holidays eh! :D
6. spending much time with my bestest and hometown friends. so many stories...blah blah blah...we just can't stop talking. :)
7. my old basement bedroom. plus my old closet with so many treasures to find.
8. new sounds on my playlist that i can't get sick on listening and waking up with---the sounds,lisa mitchell, and passion pit
9. my cute lil fancy foxy sheep dog,Ollie. he loves me so much! he comes with me wherever i go :)) it's kinda funny coz when I stop walking, he stops too and just stand beside me until I move again. haha crazy dog! but i love him so much!
10. my new ripped off acid wash jeans
11. ice cream always make me feel better. :) especially this flavor.
12. of course! my internet connection ha! :))

Halcyon

photos by Chrissie White
I want to capture curled hair, sounds, and bones. I want specifically yours.

Little dreams that doesn't make much sense

Ok. I said I won't share these stories about my weird dreams. But since you're reading constantly my blog...well I suppose, and it's fine, I think I wanted to share it with you.

I have this recurring dream, you know, if that's how you call it. It happens every year since I was seventeen. There's nothing big deal about it actually, but I don't know 'cause I feel weird about it. It wasn't vivid at all, nothing really specifically about, but as far as I can recall, it was like this:

My first dream was like I was in a hilly small place chasing this running boy wearing an army green suit and a parachute on his back heading to the cliff and was like about to jump. I was like calling him "hey! hey!" that I was so curious who he was. I was expecting to see his face when he turn around, but he didn't.

The second one was in a baseball field. Just that. Standing stiff in the middle of this baseball field, but I was hugging this boy so tight that I have no idea who he is. He's a tall white guy, quite skinny, quite lean, wearing a light denim jeans, and white shirt. With brown hair, a lil bit curly. My head was on his shoulder facing his neck, and for dog's sake! Inside my dreams, I was like "who is this guy I'm hugging 'cause it just feels so good and I wanted to see his face." I so wanted to turn my head and look, but for some really weird reason I just can't. Until I woke up, and still I didn't know who he is.

The third one was with this white guy again. And again I don't know who he is. Actually it's quite getting normal to have him in my dreams. So we were totally strangers in my dream, he's like a random guy I passed by in a sidewalk and was surprisingly asked my name, introduced me with his friend, asked me on a weird date which happens to be us in a bus going somewhere. He wrote his name and number on my palm, as well as his friend but unfortunately I can't remember anything that he wrote except the name and handwriting of his friend, whose got the name JL. It's kind of a freaky date 'cause we were in a bus, and I was sitting on his lap, and he was like hugging me so tight telling me "I won't let you go."

And lastly, and the most recent was about this guy and this child. It was like I was watching this sort of parade somewhere in America, and there's a limo that's passing in front of me which happened to be inside is the guy I don't know who, and there was a kid inside too, about 4 years old, wearing a black suit and tie. Her nanny was carrying him, and I approached the kid because I find him so cute and was kinda playing with him. Her nanny happily asked the kid this way "Do you know who she is?" Then the baby said, "Is she the girl daddy was giving money?" And lastly, before I woke up, the nanny said, "NO! She's your mommy baby!"

Oh dream, please take me far far away.

HBM

"Love is a perky elf dancing a merry little jig and then suddenly he turns on you with a miniature machine gun."

---Matt Groening

Is it true that when you lose someone once, you're not afraid to lose him twice?

PS... Happy Birthday Mikey! I suppose it's today. :D

Really happy holidays

I was so surprised and full of awe to receive my early (very early) Christmas present. :) I heart this so much. ♥
Listening to"The Bitch of Living"from the Spring Awakening. Still can't move on with this.♥

Spring Awakening

GOSH! GOSH! GOSH! I guess I haven't mention before that I love musical shows/movies/plays...etc. Finally! I was at this show last Sunday! :D And the performance was really amazing! I've always wanted to see the original cast of this play, plus (the original) Melchior is really cute ha. And deyim. I just heart this musical play ever! :D But since I can't, I won't really miss this show ever since I saw from the newspaper that they're gonna remake this show. That's why I feel so lucky to see this musical performance. :D I heart Hanschen in this version! And I was really amazed with the whole cast, especially with Jett Pangan. And I wasn't really expecting that they will do perform the kissing scene of Ernst and Hanschen. Two thumbs up!
You should see this play at least once in your life. It's worth it. Next stop? Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street on November! :D


I'd like to thank my cousin for the ticket. :)

Check out Spring Awakening's main site

I like this week, though.

Ok. I'm renting a computer right now 'cause my computer has got it all the way. It's totally dead, been so patient about it for so long and now I'm done. And I'm pissed. Plus I'm kinda busy right now with some life's projects, and I terribly need a well functioning computer. Okey, I'll try to keep my cool about this. So, for the meantime, I'll get my computer fixed.

On the brighter side... I have had an awesome week! :D Did anyone miss me? haha Ok, Let's just pretend someone misses me! ;D I went out with my friend to help her find a gift for her guy, but we just ended up looking for girl's stuff and I'm happy with what I bought for myself!!! A new skinny jeans that's perfectly fit! haha I dig it too much these days. :D





Later that week, two of my friends celebrated their birthdays! The other one we eat out and it's so fun, and the other one we partied 'til 4 in the morning. We had a blast! haha Then at the end of the week, I went to my cousin's house and just got heck of busy...you know family stuff. :) I don't know but this week is so extreme for me...both negative and positive, I even had a minor accident. I found out that in the next 6 months, or maybe more...but yea nearly...I'll be totally independent. We're moving and I gotta pay my own rent now. Scary for me at this moment. So in just a week, I had an ultimate blast of mixed emotions and experiences! Dang for that! SO hyped! So busy busy busy...blah blah blah. I think i needed a shrink.


By the way, this is my cute nephew who is taller than me, but still cute...haha wearing his Gremlin suit. :)) I love it! haha :)